After just coming off a few great weeks of inspiration- receiving news today that my trip could not last as long as I was hoping it would was somewhat discouraging.
...& due to the emotional tendencies that have been passed down to me, I of course cried.
Adulthood an responsibility just never seems to get easier for me. And after running to solitude to examine my heart & mind for a while, I came to a solid conclusion.
I thrive on change. I cannot stand still. Stagnancy is not and never will be an option for my life. So when the forward motion I find myself in get's threatened and I find myself backsliding- I get overwhelmed with frustration. The life I have in Maryland over the summer always promotes growth & inspiration- and to think of myself going back to the same exact life I left in San Diego with nothing changing, makes me feel sick.
I was not made to stay still. I was made to move, change, and go forward at every possible moment.
So in the face of stillness, I shall move.
(check it)The words I keep repeating to myself over and over:
I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
This is my chance... to not only move forward while standing still, but to persevere in my ongoing lesson with patience.
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