There Will Come a Time You'll See

Mistakes usually turn into decisions.
Even when the mistakes are someone Else's.

I am an observer of people. I have the ability to knowingly learn from other peoples mistakes, missteps & problems. Not to say I have not made my own, because boy have I, but there is a certain beauty in knowing that you can learn a lesson from just watching someone else struggle. To say "i see what's going on here. I won't let myself do that"

Even more so, when you and people who are close to you make mistakes and recognize them, they usually end up turning into a decision. A decision to be better, to not make the same mistake, to not do what caused the mistake to be made in the first place. To analyze the situation, grow and learn. Honestly, that's what I love about life.

Shit happens. But if you pay attention, and realize what went wrong, you have all the power in the world to change that. To think differently, to do differently, and hopefully encourage those around you to do the same.

As I watched Dexter last week (which was an AMAZING episode) i felt connected. inspired. refreshed in my thoughts.

(spoiler alert if you have not seen it and want to)

a little back story of the clip: Dexter is currently helping Lumen (Julia Stiles) get some "revenge" on a group of men that kidnapped her, attacked, and raped her continuously. They had plans to kill her until Dexter came along and unknowingly saved her by killing the one guy who was keeping her captive. In the garbage bags, is one of her attackers

She is hesitant to drop the bag, even knowing that what she gains from doing so is her freedom. Freedom from the haunting thoughts of being attacked & raped. Freedom from the idea that the men that did that to her are out there. But sometimes you just feel like holding on to something. Without it, what do you have? Because holding on is much easier than moving on... and then you let go- The smile on her face proves how rewarding it is.

It has been my ongoing theme with my life as of late, to "Let Go". There is so much power in those words. So much truth, and possibility.

so let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
-Frou Frou


then we can fling wide the gates
let go the last of our hate
then we can sigh
like the cool clear wind up high
through the sky above
-Over the Rhine


it took a while to understand
the beauty of just letting go
-Patty Griffin

I try to remind myself to let go constantly. Let go of jealousy. Let go of anger. Let go of the past. Nothing positive will ever come out of holding in negative feelings, emotions, situations. It's just not worth it.

It's hard, but in the end- it's the only option. It's the ONLY way to move forward.

and I'm only going forward.